I do not know if you have ever allowed yourself to feel completely overwhelmed to where you feel like everything is falling apart. Or do you get to the point where you "feel" like you are putting complete trust and faith into God and everything "seems" to be going well, then all of the sudden the world around you comes crashing down.
Recently I got to that point. I did not know what to do but, I tried so hard to let God have everything. I tried but I wanted to be in control of my emotions and not let anything or anyone in. I figured it would be easier to keep to myself, so I could deal and try to figure out everything and why it was happening. My trust in people came to a halt. There were and sometimes still are points where I did not want to be around anyone or have any talk to me. I felt like the world was against me and I was drowning in the mess that surrounded me.
I got to school this semester and God took a hold on my heart. I could not do anything on my own and by the end of each day I was exhausted and wondered if I should have stayed at home. I still did not feel at peace being away from home. Then while listening to my music one day a song by Casting Crowns came on. It is called "At Your Feet". The lyrics talk about laying everything down at the feet of Jesus and letting Him have it all. Then about a week ago I read Matthew 11:28 "Come to Me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." I do not need people of this world who will only continue to let me down. I do not need myself to try and fix everything, and I do not need to try and keep it all together. God wants me to lay it all down at His feet and since I have done that the things going on in my life are not as jumbled. No the feeling has not gone away, but I feel like Gods hand is placed on it all. There is a comfort that I cannot describe. I know God has a purpose and a plan for it all.
I challenge all of you who may be feeling the same way to lay it all at His feet. No it is not easy and I have to do it everyday, but it makes my day so much better.